Dreams

Have you ever seen the movie Langoliers? It is scary and strange and when I first saw it, I wondered what type of deranged mind had the imagination to think of this. Stephen King, of course, is the mind behind the story. I am befuddled by how an imagination such as King's works. How in the world do you create such a story?

Did he dream it then write it? Was it a nightmare put to words on paper?

Lately my dreams have been strange bordering on King. Last night was particularly bizarre. I dreamt of a character and concept that I have never heard of before. I do not follow horror, video games, role playing, or anything that deviates from normal spiritualism. Yet, when I Googled items that I dreamt about last night, I got so many responses and images that matched or came too close for comfort. I am a little scared. I do not know how in the world I could dream of these things. I don't know if I want to continue dreaming like this. I don't know how much control I have over it.

Is someone playing with my mind? Does my mind contain memories that I am not aware of?

I have many recurring dreams. Most are dreams I can recall like favorite memories. Sometimes I will forget about a certain dream and then *poof* it just flits across my mind while I am doing dishes or watching tv. They come back like old friends for a visit in my waking hours.

I don't believe my dreams are "lucid". When I dream, it feels real and I cannot step aside to tell myself I am dreaming and change the scenario. If my dreams get too scary, I usually just wake up. I try to lull myself back to sleep thinking about laying on the beach. Half in the water, half on the sand. This works for me.

Should I research these odd dreams and remembrances? It would be like me to read everything I could find on the subject. There are many books on dreaming, however, they all feel so vague. I don't care about flying symbolism and that rubbish, I just want to know why I recall all these dreams like old friends and why I have started dreaming about bizarro ideas and things that I have never had interest in or knowledge of before.

I feel like Rosemary except I am not pregnant - for sure. I wonder if Mia Farrow had bad nightmares when she filmed that movie. That shit scares the hell out of me.

I have no idea what will happen tonight, but I am sure I will dream. Think of beaches.